It's 1:42 am. I'm nodding off a bit as I type. I am trying to get my body used to night shifts again, and it kinda sucks! For years I worked evenings and over-nights. Last May I had the opportunity to change my shift to early mornings. I am NOT a morning person, never have been. But the opportunity to switch to mornings doesn't come up very often so Phil and I thought I should take advantage. The theory was that we would struggle though the summer finding child-care for the girls but come September it would be great because I'd always be home before the girls got off school. So we did just that - beg and plead with people to take care of the girls in the mornings all summer. The day the girls went back to school this year I started my new Help Desk position - ON NIGHTS!! All that worry and struggle all summer was for naught. So here I am back on nights.
I am feeling a bit sorry for myself today as I am once again missing dance class and not home in the evenings for my girls to chat with me, read to me, and tuck in at night. I'm pretty sure this is temporary, in January I get the chance to bid for a new schedule again and hopefully that means mornings again, but there's no guarantee. Right now I am dragging my sorry butt out of bed early each morning to make the girls a good breakfast, help them get ready, drive them to school and on the days that I don't work too early I am picking them up and bringing them home for a hot lunch. All that being said, I still feel sad about it.
I know I am just one in a huge group of moms doing what they have to do to help their family survive in this expensive, busy life. Do you think it's worth it though?
Its hard finding that balance. When I worked evenings, I felt like I was working to not see my kids. The burden fell on my husband to run the house.
ReplyDeleteThen when I went to crack of dawn early shifts, not much changed. Except, I made dinner. Im passing out by 6pm on the couch and my children tuck me in.
Are we able to achieve balance? I haven't yet, and its been 2 yrs here.